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read my profile sign my guestbook  Name: MiKE SAO State: Pennsylvania Metro: Philadelphia Birthday: 7/18/1986 Gender: Male Interests: MISS MARY NGUYEN!!! Representing Temple University class of 2008 and Cardinal Dougherty H.S. class of 2004. Also interested in music and stuff that's fun, that means you!  Expertise: - being a KHMER, CHINK, n VIET AMERICAN, making MARY NGUYEN happy, making people laugh when they need it the most, loving life to the fullest and oving everyone that i can! payce, wun*1 (1 love, 1 life) Occupation: Student Industry: Medical Message: message meEmail: email me AIM:  HybridDemon86AIM:  mik3sao
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random thoughts at 3amSo i sit here staring at my wall wondering where has all the time went. it seems only yesterday i was laying outside staring at the clouds with not a care in the world. where has the time gone? gray hair, wrinkled skin, heartache, sleepless nights. there's no more carelessness, no more hope. how has the time gone? a heart filled with jealousy and body of low self esteem is all that remains. there is no more hope. pain falls from my eyes and a heartahces with longing. what has the time gone? no more hugs from your parents, no more saturday morning cartoons. the little crushes in your heart dissapears and only one stands alone. why did the time go? sometimes i wish time will stop and all the pain will end. no more growing, no more aging, no more sorrow, no more tears. out of all the sadness, all the pain love tries to bloom. but still jealousy lurks and the self esteem wains. when did the time go? im sorry for all this pain, im sorry for the lost of hope. im sorry all your dreams have dissapeared and im sorry that the innocence has fled. the love still remains and is cherished everyday. forget all the pain and forget all the worries. forget all the sadness and forget all the tears. remember all the smiles and remember all laughs. remember all bonds and remember all the love. til the end of the world, til the last breath has left. fuck where the time has gone our love will surpass it | |
nothing in life is certain?"The only thing that's certain in life is that nothing in life is for certain." As i sat there reading this quote, i couldnt help to think about all the complexities that could come from one little sentence on one little peice of paper found in something as simple as a fortune cookie. Although i usually pay no mind to the rediculous quotes that come from my fortune cookies, this specific quote made me think about all the things that i've been trying to avoid thinking about. When reading this quote i automatically knew that it made no sense because by saying that nothing in life was certain would therefore mean that the quote itself was not for certain and could then be interpreted as the idea that everything in life IS certain. And that was when a light popped into my head and i thought maybe the quote itself did make sense or more specifically the words of the quote didnt make sense but the ideas that flow from that sentence did. It's true that everything in life is certain. It's certain that you will feel pain. It's certain that nothing in life is fair. It's certain that people will die and it's even certain that you will die. From this i reflected upon my life and remember all the truths that i've been avoiding. I thought about how my sister ran away again for the 8th time in her life. I thought about the fact my number of friends has dwindled to the amount of fingers i have on my hand. I thought about how no matter how much you can love a person and stull get hurt so easily. And i finally thought about my car crash by head on collision earlier this week and how Mary and could have actually died because some people are ignorant and dont care for other human life. And this brings me back to the certainty of pain because pain is one of the most certain things in life. Pain comes in many forms. It can be mental, it can be physical and it can even be emotional. But then again i know one other thing that is certain which is love which brings about hope and faith. There arent many things that can defeat pain but love definately is. So for all of those pains in my life right now, i choose to remember that i have love to heal them. The love of other family members who will never stop trying to help another family member that is lost in life. The love of friends, although few, who will stand beside you and try to help make things better. The love of a loved one who always tries to help you with all those doubts, insecurities and trust issues you might have and will always be a part of you. And finally the love of God who will always steer you in the right direction when your blinded by anger and hate. I'll always know for certain that love will take my pain away because i know that "the only thing thats certain in life is that nothing in life is for certain" which makes everything in life for certain. peace and one love. | |
better late than never Hey yall, i don't know if anyone actually reads this thinger anymore but whatever! soooooooo nothing much has happened, just alot of booore. this whole summer i basically spent it working about 8-10 hours a day at my pop's store. but that's okay i guess cuz i hardly see them during the school year, so it kinda evens out. well besides from working most of the time, i spent the other majority of my time with my awesome girlfriend Mary! (ps. our 1 year anniversary just passed this sunday, WOWZERS!) lol. yup yup and every few moments i had from my busy busy sched i tried to hang out with my friends. well anyways besides from the one year anniversary the other big thing that happened this summer was that i got a car! and over the last 3-4 months i've already managed to add on about 6-7 thousanddddd miles! now that is alot of driving... lol and i also spent more than $1000 on gasoline. lol. thanx to my good buddy Marc and my other random friends whom i talk to about cars i've managed to keep the "green beast" running and working eventhough it does have it's problems being the fact that it's an old car. Oddly enough eventhough i barely know anything about cars, i do like to work on my car and try to improve it (pix will come soon). Soooo right now i'm sitting in Temple's computer lab which has basically turned to crap over the last year. Shockingly enough our "brand new" computer lab actually just opened approximately one year ago! at this exact moment i'm actually using one of our iMacs which a keyboard that has so much grime on it that it's disgusting and also with a screen that has so many smudges on it that i'm barely able to see what i'm writing. although there are many problems with our computer lab and alot of things no longer work it is still considred "new" according to our school. well anyways since i am getting extremely bored just from writing this entry and i know that you guys are getting bored from reading it, i decided to list my top 10 goals for this school year... Goal the 1st: Spend more time with my girlfriend and love her more than what is physically possible! Goal the 3rd: Raise my GPA to a 3.4 and ace my PCATS (i know, this technically should be in my top 2) Goal the 4th: Get into a Pharmacy School Goal the 5th: Fix my car and make it look better before Marc gets his STI and before Rodrigo gets his Evo Goal the 6th: pay off my credit card (i know this should also be one of my top goals but fuck 'em) Goal the 7th: learn how to speak english better (lol i know this one is funny) Goal the 8th: get out this freaking country! meaning travel lol Canada, London, Australia, Italy and China are my top 5 choices to go to. Goal the 9th: get a temporary pharmacy job Goal the 10th: become strong enough to lift Rod up with one hand. lol yes those are my goals. well anyways complete boredom has taken ahold of me so i've decided to go outside and walk around and maybe rob Tien if i see him. lol  hey yall old pic i've been meaning to put up. sweeeet | |||
hey guys, what's up?!?! yes yes i know it has been a hella long time since i've updated this old thing but i guess now is the time! | |||
Jesus Loves You: So I actually haven’t written an actual update in a few months and I’m writing one now. My first year at You say that love goes anywhere In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there. When you go, I'll let you be but you're killing everything in me | |
